Today has simply been one of those days where I actually got a whole lot done, as opposed to just wanting to get it done. It feels really really good to have accomplished so much and yet I know I am going to pay for it tommorow and probably days later.
Last night we were up really late watching Mall Cop. I recomend it for kids not so much for adult, to much of a lame plot and canned comedy. I thought that would mean everybody would sleep in. Uhm no this morning X was up a tad past seven! JT got up with him and tried to let me sleep. He is rather noisey in his version of try but he did try. I was up by seven-thirty.
It was a really beautiful morning so I didn't waste it. I jumped right in getting stuff done.
I have a small garden plot with tomatoes and peper plants and some planters. Today I finally got the mulch on the plot, the cages around the plants, another tiny plot dug and the planters where I wanted them. I still need more cages and mulch. It actually looks like a garden now though. The yard where it is has been used by people to drive on and dump thier trah on for awhile before we got here and is not exactly ideal to make a garden so this is a big step for us. The sil seems good enough since it was growing a huge huge crop of wild onions. We put up a fence to put a stop to people actually driving on the lawn as well, but not today.
I also managed to get enough hose length to got from the back to the front a bit so that I could set up the wadding pool.The pool was gross dirty and had to be scrubed out big time. I also had to rake the sticks up from the yard as best as I could to make a spot for it. I got it filled up and the little kids were very happyabout that.
Later I went to Wally World all alone. I went for three things and came back with many more. Found fresh corn at a fantastic price so had to get a lot. I also got some tree lopers. When I got home I made a lot of use of the lopers. I have a huge amount of lopped off branches now and am much happier with the look of our foresty yard. It was really exhausting work but it felt so so good to do it. Tommorow the kids are going to drag them all into one pile outside the fence.
For dinner I grilled chicken, steak, and hotdogs and steamed fresh corn on the cobb. Oh I had been slow cooking baked beans all day as well but I forgot about them when it was dinner time. Tried a made up marinade on the chicken that was fantastic but I'm not sure I can duplicate it which sucks.
JT got called out just before I put things on the grill which sucked big freaking time. I'm tired of everything always being interupted by his job. it's not like they pay a fortune to make up for the inconvience either.
The kids watched tv while I did the cooking and then we ate really well. After we ate we roasted marshmellows and made smores. Xavier insisted on doing his own marshmellow. Hailey decided she should roast one just for the ants! Then Jason wanted to go swimming again and of course X and Hailey did to.
After I go the food put away and Hailey and X into bed Jason started asking about me cutting his hair again. He has been asking for over a month and things have been to crazy, and now I haven't been able to find the hair scissors. He's been really paitent though so tonight I just grabed an extra pair of sewing ones and did it. It would have been so much easier with the clippers but he hates the feel and noise of them. I really have no idea what I am doing when I cut hair on the kids. I just kinda start and keep shaping it as I go. I'm much better with the clippers. I had to touch it up three times after he would go look in the mirror, but finally he was very happy with it. it definately doesn't look like a pro did it but it's not terrible either.
Then Jason went to bed, I checked my cousins, sons, website for an update on his cancer treatments (he's hanging in there), and grated a bar of soap for the laundry soap I'm going to make tommorow.
I feel like so much was accomplished today. It was even better because Hannah did a lot as well, without a complaint and JT did a bunch of little things so I didn't have to.
I feel really good but tired right now. I think I'm going to pay a heavy price for all this productiveness, tommorow but I'll deal with it then.
Sunday, May 24, 2009
Monday, May 11, 2009
Life and random things I feel like sharing
We are completely moved, have been for a week now. I can not stress how much I hate moving. My body is not handeling the stress, both physical and mental, of the move very well. Lots of pain, but I am doing my best to keep working through it. I take lots and lots of breaks. If I take a few days off things will snowball into way to much work because we are still unpacking and finding places for stuff. I have found places for lots of things though and I think the unpacking is going pretty well. For the most part we are no longer living out of boxes anymore. Stuff is just not very organized or usuable in a lot of areas. Things like my sewing machine, extra bathroom stuff, lots of books, the extra tv and playstation, and so many holiday dishes and bakeware that I am still confused as to where to put. There simply isn't much in the way of storage, closets or cupboards in this place.
Accomplishments so far are getting the swingset up, lawn mowed, fence on the garden side up, clothesline up, tons of poison ivy down, phoneline strung to the computer room,and grden plots dug.
The yard here is huge and we seem to be attracting the whole neighborhood of kids. So far they all seem nice and behave themselves. There is a park about a block and a half down the street and Jason is really really wanting to be able to go to it on his own. It's very common for kids his age and younger to wander the whole area on thier own but I'm still hesitant to let him. He's only eight and I'm not terribly sure he's ready for the independance yet. Sometimes I do think I shelter him to much but I just want him to be safe. A part of me is excited he's showing an interest in making friends and being independant. My biggest arguement has been that he doen't have a watch so he won't know when to come home or check in. To counter this he has repetedly asked to borrow my phone so then he'll know what time it is lol. No way he's getting my phone but I'm thinking of a watch.
Hailey has made friend with a little girl across the street named Roberta. She's a nice little girl but I'm already getting tired of keeping track of what time she is suppose to be home when they are playing in the yard. She'll come over and ask to play and then tell me she has to be home in twenty minutes or at 6:00 which means I then have to pay attention to the clock for her. This happens a couple times a night. She lives right across the street, if they want her home at a certian time why don't they just stand on the porch and give a yell for her or walk over to our yard, or buy her a watch lol.
On other fronts JT and I are still not getting along. Although he has sincerly appologized for Friday nights freak out. Now I'm not always the funnest to be around but he is just a giant puss filled ass most of the time these days. It's next to imoossible for any of us to get along with him. He's constantly getting angry about one thing or another. It makes me wish he wasn't here a lot. He always seems like he is looking for a fight to pick. Earlier he was yelling at Xavier for watching him (and spotting all the worms)when he was diggin up part of the garden. He tried to pick a fight with me over the laundry room door being closed. Maybe he has PMS or something. I know his job is stressing him but the way he's acting is really crappy and childish most of the time. This is nothing new I just wish it would stop sooner rather than later.
For Mothers Day the little kids made me cards and Hannah made me paper flowers. JT cooked me breakfast and then woke me up to eat it in bed (would have been really nice if it didn't take me forever to actually be able to move and wake up in the first place). I then spent the rest of the day cleaning the whole damn house and working in the yard. Not exactly the best mothers day I've ever had. Hailey was really really happy to make and give me a card though. Her happiness over it was better than the card itself and kinda made up for the lack of anything remotely special about the day.
Hannah hasbeen gradually becoming much more greedy, selfish and entitled. I think I've enabled this behavior to a point to. She has stopped asking to do things and has just started to tell me she is going to do this or that, needs a new this or that and needs money for this or that. For my sanity and her health (because I was gonna kill her), I closed moms taxi service and bank for the summer. I made it clear to her that I would not be funding anything from swimsuits to even bus fair and that if she wanted to get somewhere she'd have to arrange it with someone else from now on (ecxept in the situation of a job or volunteering). I have also told her she has one month to either get a job or start volenteering somewhere or I cut of her cell phone, which I just reactivated and am paying for. I told her she needs to be doing something out of the house, besides hanging with friends, for at least ten hours a week and it can't be a class I have to pay for. It will be good for her and ten hours a week is nothing really. I think she will begin to appreciate her free time and any money she makes so much more this way. She'll also learn some better time mangement and personal responsibilty out of it. So far she is leaning towards a job. She's been printing of applications and asking me all kinds of questions on how to fill them out. I'm not sure how much of a chance she has at getting a job but I'll continue to encourage her to try. I know she could find a ton of volunteer oportunities out there but I don't think she wants to give her time away for free. She's become pretty selfish and developed a very high opinion of herself lately. A minimum wage job where she is is the low guy should take care of that pretty quick lol. I love her but she is nowhere near as entitled as she thinks she is!
Accomplishments so far are getting the swingset up, lawn mowed, fence on the garden side up, clothesline up, tons of poison ivy down, phoneline strung to the computer room,and grden plots dug.
The yard here is huge and we seem to be attracting the whole neighborhood of kids. So far they all seem nice and behave themselves. There is a park about a block and a half down the street and Jason is really really wanting to be able to go to it on his own. It's very common for kids his age and younger to wander the whole area on thier own but I'm still hesitant to let him. He's only eight and I'm not terribly sure he's ready for the independance yet. Sometimes I do think I shelter him to much but I just want him to be safe. A part of me is excited he's showing an interest in making friends and being independant. My biggest arguement has been that he doen't have a watch so he won't know when to come home or check in. To counter this he has repetedly asked to borrow my phone so then he'll know what time it is lol. No way he's getting my phone but I'm thinking of a watch.
Hailey has made friend with a little girl across the street named Roberta. She's a nice little girl but I'm already getting tired of keeping track of what time she is suppose to be home when they are playing in the yard. She'll come over and ask to play and then tell me she has to be home in twenty minutes or at 6:00 which means I then have to pay attention to the clock for her. This happens a couple times a night. She lives right across the street, if they want her home at a certian time why don't they just stand on the porch and give a yell for her or walk over to our yard, or buy her a watch lol.
On other fronts JT and I are still not getting along. Although he has sincerly appologized for Friday nights freak out. Now I'm not always the funnest to be around but he is just a giant puss filled ass most of the time these days. It's next to imoossible for any of us to get along with him. He's constantly getting angry about one thing or another. It makes me wish he wasn't here a lot. He always seems like he is looking for a fight to pick. Earlier he was yelling at Xavier for watching him (and spotting all the worms)when he was diggin up part of the garden. He tried to pick a fight with me over the laundry room door being closed. Maybe he has PMS or something. I know his job is stressing him but the way he's acting is really crappy and childish most of the time. This is nothing new I just wish it would stop sooner rather than later.
For Mothers Day the little kids made me cards and Hannah made me paper flowers. JT cooked me breakfast and then woke me up to eat it in bed (would have been really nice if it didn't take me forever to actually be able to move and wake up in the first place). I then spent the rest of the day cleaning the whole damn house and working in the yard. Not exactly the best mothers day I've ever had. Hailey was really really happy to make and give me a card though. Her happiness over it was better than the card itself and kinda made up for the lack of anything remotely special about the day.
Hannah hasbeen gradually becoming much more greedy, selfish and entitled. I think I've enabled this behavior to a point to. She has stopped asking to do things and has just started to tell me she is going to do this or that, needs a new this or that and needs money for this or that. For my sanity and her health (because I was gonna kill her), I closed moms taxi service and bank for the summer. I made it clear to her that I would not be funding anything from swimsuits to even bus fair and that if she wanted to get somewhere she'd have to arrange it with someone else from now on (ecxept in the situation of a job or volunteering). I have also told her she has one month to either get a job or start volenteering somewhere or I cut of her cell phone, which I just reactivated and am paying for. I told her she needs to be doing something out of the house, besides hanging with friends, for at least ten hours a week and it can't be a class I have to pay for. It will be good for her and ten hours a week is nothing really. I think she will begin to appreciate her free time and any money she makes so much more this way. She'll also learn some better time mangement and personal responsibilty out of it. So far she is leaning towards a job. She's been printing of applications and asking me all kinds of questions on how to fill them out. I'm not sure how much of a chance she has at getting a job but I'll continue to encourage her to try. I know she could find a ton of volunteer oportunities out there but I don't think she wants to give her time away for free. She's become pretty selfish and developed a very high opinion of herself lately. A minimum wage job where she is is the low guy should take care of that pretty quick lol. I love her but she is nowhere near as entitled as she thinks she is!
Friday, May 8, 2009
I'm mad at the Prick
The title pretty musch sums this one up. The target of my anger has ordered that i leave him out of my blog. Yeah that helped my anger towards him sooooo much, the prick! So for this blog I will just refere to him as the prick.
I have never been shy about my opnion that pot should be legal since it is much safer than a cigerette and no more harmful than a beer. both those things are legal so what the hell is up with pot being illgal.I've also never made my use of it a secret. Every single time the subject of pot has come up the prick has never come across as jusdgemental. He's always been clear it isnn't for him, he doesn't like it, he's not comfortable with it around the kids but it was fine for other people.
Tonight I went to spend some time with friends and I was very clear it would be there. He said go, have a good time, consider it your mothers day gift. So I went and I enjoyed myself. I make no appologies for anything, it was very nice.
I came home he was still in the same crapy mood he was in when I left. Infact he was so consumed with his own crappy mood that he didn't bother to ask Hannah how her night had gone and thus he had no idea her entire bag, with expensive things in it, had been stolen!
At one point he asked if I toked and when I saud yes you could see he was mad so I asked if he had a problen with that and he said a little but he'd get over it. I was very confused and a bit upset at that so i walked away and left him alone. We've had more conversations about potthan I can count and he's never had a problem with others doing it, it just isn't for him. He's even shared the opinion that maybe it should be made legal. He had no problem with me going, it has been no secret that I enjoy smoking and have done so before. What the heck was he thinking I was going to do and what is his problem now?
So a little bit later he comes out to me completly attacking me as if I just commited a murder! It came completly out of left feild. He is all over me because I did something illegal, and what kind of example was i setting for the kids by doing something illegal. Is he an idiot or just a jerk because I am always talking about how it should be legal and the fact that just because something is illegal doesn't mean it's wrong. What the hell doesn't even begin to describe what I was thinking as the the prick was going on and on. Frankly I think I'm setting a great example for our kids (even though none of then were even there). I believe the laws against pot are wrong, unjust and based on falsehoods. If I beleive a law is incorrect, morally wrong, or unjust then I will not follow it. I will not put blind faith in the system that simply because they put a law on paper that it is a good or correct law. If people did that then where would we be with womens rights, cival rights and child labor in this country. I think making a decision based on facts, a moral stance and with my eyes wide open sets a pretty good example for my kids no matter what the subject might be. The whole times he's picking this fight his only arguement was that it was illegal and if it's illegal it must be bad for you. It was clear there was no independant thhought in him at all over this. It was also clear that the prick had been talking out his ass on this before.
Finally he appologised for his attacking but he kept on the subject like he was looking for another way to argue. He didn't seem to care for the fact tat I wasn't taking the bait. At one point it occured to him that I would be blogging about this so he ordered me to leave him out of my blog. So he went from treating me like a leaper that had just commited murder to throwing out orders in an attempt to squash my free speech. Amazingly he;s not really understanding why i'm not happy with him. So now he's not in this blog, the prick is instead. I am unbelievably mad at the freaking prick and I encurage others to be as well. Where the hell does he get off acting this way. I don't intend to make any secret of my anger because I feel like he's been lying to me and totally blowing off everything I've ever had to say on this subject.
The judgemental prick is in deep do do this time. I don't care what the hell he says now, how am I susppose to believe him and not wonder if it's not jsut lip service again. hell he can't even think of one dangerous thing about poit that would be a reason to keep it illegal and I was much much more sober with it than I would have been after a few drinks which are legal.
I have never been shy about my opnion that pot should be legal since it is much safer than a cigerette and no more harmful than a beer. both those things are legal so what the hell is up with pot being illgal.I've also never made my use of it a secret. Every single time the subject of pot has come up the prick has never come across as jusdgemental. He's always been clear it isnn't for him, he doesn't like it, he's not comfortable with it around the kids but it was fine for other people.
Tonight I went to spend some time with friends and I was very clear it would be there. He said go, have a good time, consider it your mothers day gift. So I went and I enjoyed myself. I make no appologies for anything, it was very nice.
I came home he was still in the same crapy mood he was in when I left. Infact he was so consumed with his own crappy mood that he didn't bother to ask Hannah how her night had gone and thus he had no idea her entire bag, with expensive things in it, had been stolen!
At one point he asked if I toked and when I saud yes you could see he was mad so I asked if he had a problen with that and he said a little but he'd get over it. I was very confused and a bit upset at that so i walked away and left him alone. We've had more conversations about potthan I can count and he's never had a problem with others doing it, it just isn't for him. He's even shared the opinion that maybe it should be made legal. He had no problem with me going, it has been no secret that I enjoy smoking and have done so before. What the heck was he thinking I was going to do and what is his problem now?
So a little bit later he comes out to me completly attacking me as if I just commited a murder! It came completly out of left feild. He is all over me because I did something illegal, and what kind of example was i setting for the kids by doing something illegal. Is he an idiot or just a jerk because I am always talking about how it should be legal and the fact that just because something is illegal doesn't mean it's wrong. What the hell doesn't even begin to describe what I was thinking as the the prick was going on and on. Frankly I think I'm setting a great example for our kids (even though none of then were even there). I believe the laws against pot are wrong, unjust and based on falsehoods. If I beleive a law is incorrect, morally wrong, or unjust then I will not follow it. I will not put blind faith in the system that simply because they put a law on paper that it is a good or correct law. If people did that then where would we be with womens rights, cival rights and child labor in this country. I think making a decision based on facts, a moral stance and with my eyes wide open sets a pretty good example for my kids no matter what the subject might be. The whole times he's picking this fight his only arguement was that it was illegal and if it's illegal it must be bad for you. It was clear there was no independant thhought in him at all over this. It was also clear that the prick had been talking out his ass on this before.
Finally he appologised for his attacking but he kept on the subject like he was looking for another way to argue. He didn't seem to care for the fact tat I wasn't taking the bait. At one point it occured to him that I would be blogging about this so he ordered me to leave him out of my blog. So he went from treating me like a leaper that had just commited murder to throwing out orders in an attempt to squash my free speech. Amazingly he;s not really understanding why i'm not happy with him. So now he's not in this blog, the prick is instead. I am unbelievably mad at the freaking prick and I encurage others to be as well. Where the hell does he get off acting this way. I don't intend to make any secret of my anger because I feel like he's been lying to me and totally blowing off everything I've ever had to say on this subject.
The judgemental prick is in deep do do this time. I don't care what the hell he says now, how am I susppose to believe him and not wonder if it's not jsut lip service again. hell he can't even think of one dangerous thing about poit that would be a reason to keep it illegal and I was much much more sober with it than I would have been after a few drinks which are legal.
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